How is everyone’s isolation going? This week hasn’t been too bad. Especially since missing our wedding this past weekend, I am doing fairly well.
I must say that my first few weeks of isolation were not great for my mental health. I’m too much of an extrovert and social butterfly (duh) to be kept from the rest of the world. But, thankfully, I have wonderful people in my life and I am getting by and struggling a little less.
I have been teaching my boot camps and personal training via Zoom and other social media video platforms and that has been going pretty fantastic. I’ve also been doing my own fitness thing – working out, running, walking, participating in a new 60 day challenge. I’ve been reading – I finished John Grisham’s recent book and started a Candace Cameron book. I’ve been engaging in some really great conversations. We’ve been watching some really bad movies thanks to Prime and Netflix. I mean seriously bad…so dumb, so lame. I’ve been packing. I’ve been snuggling with my cat a lot. Thankfully she snuggles back.
I’ve been having weird nightmares since isolation began. I’ve probably had 5 or 6 or 7 terrible nightmares. The other night I woke up after having a nightmare. The poor Man didn’t know what to think. I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t swallow, and my heart rate was through the roof. I’m not sure if they’re caused from stress or what…but I am not a fan.
Thankfully I am back to work for the next couple of days and then isolation for another week. It’s great to get out of the house and see people. I feel comfortable at work. Although, we have all had our stressful moments.
So that is it for my little update…simply because I cannot think of anything to post. I’m sure something will come to me.
Today is my wedding day.
At least, today was supposed to be my wedding day. If all had gone as planned, I would be getting ready to walk down the aisle right now.
But Covid-19 happened. And my dreams of a gorgeous May wedding have been spoiled by a virus that just won’t quit.
I’m sad. To say the least, I’m sad. And I’m mad. In fact, I’m pissed off. This is a day I have waited way too long for, and although we have set a new date, it’s not the date I wanted. And who knows if it will happen then?
So I’m sitting here in solitude (kinda – the man is sitting here also), sipping my coffee, and thinking about what this day should have been. I’m thinking about my designer dress – the only one sold in Canada, by the way – that I have had and been waiting to wear for the last 8 months; I’m thinking about celebrating my union with my family and friends – the people we love.
But for now, I will sit here and be pissed off….but also be thankful that we are safe and healthy and together. But still pissed off!!